I lost the one thing I had. I used to feel as if the entire world belonged to me, I used to feel as if I belonged to me, as if my future belonged to me. You took that from me. I no longer understand the world. I no longer have faith that I will make it to my dreams, or even that I will end up okay, because I no longer have a faith that anything is certain. I used to believe in me, but you took that from me.

When you took your life, you took the world I lived in, the world I felt I could conquer, and you shook it like a snow globe. And all of these things I thought I had figured out, and all of these things I understood, and all of these things I thought were concrete you threw in the air and they drifted around my head and settled somewhere new. My entire world was altered, everything I knew disturbed. 

And as all of this hit me, as it all sunk in, you shook me. You took me from this comfortable place and threw me in the air and let me drift around. But I haven’t landed.

Since you took your life, I’ve just been drifting.