January 2012
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My parents have been married 39 years today.
Living proof that love exists, and that hard work is the secret to great success.
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I hope my 4Runner hates me.
I hate to think it’s experiencing some unrequited love.
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I'm about to do something really bad.
I don’t care, I’m fabulous.
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A personal story
I gave a brief speech in front of the majority of my state’s legislators this week. I wasn’t really prepared for it, and I wasn’t really sure what I was going to say, but I’ll be honest - I kind of rocked it.
I’ll be honest about something else - on more than one occasion I took a failing grade on an assignment just to avoid speaking in front of a classroom of...
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I don't understand mean for the sake of mean.
But it is all I have left to hope that those who decide to go out of their way to attack and degrade people they hardly know are doing so because they are hurting so badly inside that making someone else hurts lessens that pain. This is the only concept I have a grip on, any other reason for the intense amount of hate in the world, is far beyond what I can comprehend.
I wonder if the world ever...
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He hates her because she’s got confidence that he calls cockiness. He hates her because she speaks up, because she says what she thinks instead of what she thinks he wants to hear. He hates her because she isn’t afraid to admit when she doesn’t understand, and he just plays along. He hates her because she answers his questions honestly, even when a lie would have been more...
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To those who scoffed at the idea, and criticized my work:
I’ll assure you, when it’s finally my day, I won’t forget those who helped me, nor those who stood in my way.
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Maybe when I move I should get a roommate.
I’m much more comfortable alone, and I can pay my rent comfortably. But nothing brilliant ever came of staying within my comfort zone.
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I'm going to write you a letter.
In it will be all of the things I want to say to you but won’t, because you don’t deserve to know. I’ll tell you everything. I’ll tell the truth. I’ll admit to my faults, and condemn you for yours. I’m going to write them all down, seal them in an envelope, and address it to a random address in the city you now live in. I’m going to put postage stamps on...
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“You never learned, the rules have changed since we were nine. This isn’t...”
– Ben Gibbard, Carolina
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I rather dislike January.
People use the first of the year as an excuse to finally begin doing the things they should have been doing all along in the form of New Year’s resolutions. They’re suddenly going to be healthier and more responsible and organized and take care of themselves, their families, and their belongings. Most of them won’t, of course, suddenly be wonderful people simply because the year...
December 2011
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To every lovely lady out there who has ever been left for another - stop blaming the one you were left for, and start blaming the one who left you. Stop looking at every other female as a competitor. Ladies, we hate each other. Fighting, snide comments, rumors… we’re vicious, powerful individuals, and we want blood.
Look at the power you have a woman. Look at all of the women who...
“You just waltzed back in my life like you deserved to be here or something. You...”
– (via wordsandlyrics)
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“The evaluation specialists have reviewed your Degree Audit, and it has been determined that you are a valid candidate for Spring 2012 graduation.”
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Interesting.
I’m staying in the childhood bedroom of a young man who has since moved out. Because of the way he keeps his belongings, sprawled across tops of dressers and his desk, and attached to the pin board above his desk, I’ve been given a detailed look at his life. What I find so fascinating is everything I see, I appreciate, respect, connect with. This young man, whoever he is, I’m...
The person I want to be
benjaminsteiner:
Is rarely who I find myself being. Can I really be who I want to be? Or is that person someone I am not. I think and ponder and wonder what could be, if I were me and only me. If I could be you would I be you? No. Then there wouldn’t be a me to know it was you that I was being and if you’re confused that’s perfectly okay. You’re not me. But if you were, you’d understand where I...
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I’m looking for someone to help me make a mess of the kitchen that we don’t clean up for days and to yell at for not doing anything wrong when I just need to go off on someone. I don’t need someone to tell me I’m crazy for obsessively rearranging the furniture every month. I don’t need someone to hold me at night or fix the leaky faucet. I don’t need to be taken care of, I don’t want to be taken...
spacesofsound:
And there will be the day when you will fall. Fall to the deepest of sufferings and the most painful of outcomes. All defenses break, and everything you have ever inhibited for so long will pour out. This is the moment of weakness, the moment of vulnerability, when you realize that you are so far removed from the stability and normalcy you thought you had already achieved.
Yet...
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Perfect.
I stopped chasing perfect when I realized I didn’t want to be perfect - I wanted people to think I was perfect. Perfect is not an aspiration, perfect is simply a ramification. We do not become perfect, famous, or renowned because we want to. We become these things when we become talented, successful, and victorious. Perfect is for the uninspired, the petty, the weak. Perfect is a good goal...
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Senior year was something to remember.
It was exploration, dedication, and inspiration. It was finding yourself. It was the hardest work we’d ever done in our lives. It was another cup of coffee to keep me up all night because my essay is due in three hours. It was excuses and bullshitting. It was are we sure we want to do this? It was our parents would kills us. It was one day at a time to get out alive. It was taking too many classes...
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His eyes and ears had been stricken by so many encounters with so many tragedies, they’d been left scarred and numb. He was so used to being attacked, neglected, and hated, that he defend himself by default. He wasn’t always like this, she could see it. When they would laugh together, he seemed to forget it all, and he would say things and do things she’d never expect from him. There...
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She keeps a head full of secrets and a mouthful of lies. She holds tricks up her sleeves and danger in her eyes.
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In the far corner of the room was an orange colored couch which did not match any of the other furniture in the room. On it was a young girl who did not match any of the other people in the room. The room was dark, save for the light of the television, with darkly dressed people strewn about darkly colored furniture. The couch and the girl seemed to have been borrowed from another room, even...
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I know how cliche this sounds, but
I went to the pound today. I’m not actually looking to get a new dog yet, just kind of spending some time there to see if it starts to feel right to bring one home.
I met this little guy, his name was Bozo. Something about the way he approached me when I went to look in his cage stood out to me. Sort of like we had an understanding. I know, I know, it’s just a dog. With everything...
imperfectionatelylovely asked: Omg. What happened to your doggy?
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Growing up sucks, but
being excited about the gifts you are going to give, not the gifts you may receive, is a wonderful exception.
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When you took your life,
I lost the one thing I had. I used to feel as if the entire world belonged to me, I used to feel as if I belonged to me, as if my future belonged to me. You took that from me. I no longer understand the world. I no longer have faith that I will make it to my dreams, or even that I will end up okay, because I no longer have a faith that anything is certain. I used to believe in me, but you took...
November 2011
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The apartment had never been well lit, but with the light from Jady’s aquarium gone, you couldn’t even see who was sitting next to you. I missed the aquarium. I missed the buzz of the florescent light. I missed everything in that room, and every detail that I could remember from last May. All eleven of us who had crammed into that two bedroom apartment spent our evenings sitting on the...
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Watching them destroy what we built, change what this organization stood for, what it was going to do for people. Watching them change everything but the name, it was like watching someone paint a vulgar image over our beautiful art, and leave nothing but our name in the lower right corner. This was never the dream.
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i dreamed of you last night
you always find me, even in the dark of night.
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Shame on you for thinking you’d be the one to tie her down. Everyone knows, the girl doesn’t stick around.
October 2011
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Constantly surrounded by people, he’s always alone.
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not better off
just better without you.
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Going shopping instead of going to class tomorrow. Fashion will bring me more success than biology.
she knows he won't call
but she’ll stay up by the phone because she’s his good girl, and that’s what good girls do.
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September 2011
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Either the pool is growing shallow, or I’m learning how to swim.
Most memorable was the weak sound in his voice when he realized he’d fallen in love with his best friend.